Boring

Same stories. Same theme. Same lessons. It's boring like using the word same three times instead of choosing its thesaurus. 

The writer looks at a Randon trailer to get inspired, but life serves him hunger pains and bitter thoughts. I guess when Biko Zulu says that "Everything is a story" it's not a one-size-fits-all philosophy. 

Anyway, the world doesn't owe me anything.  I feel very bitter about my current casual job. Blaming my team leaders makes it hard for me to see the blessing in the pain. 

Blaming is easy. It's not helping to resolve my issues. I am investing my time; I want returns on my investment. Blaming is comparable to showing the middle finger to ROI. 

Truth be told, my mindset is crappy. They don't provide transportation when I am involved in the organization's operations [I move around a lot]. At the beginning, data bundles and phone calls expenses were recorded under my balance sheet [not the company's balance sheet]. 

When I am part of the company's operations, then transportation and top-up should be recorded under the organization's balance sheet. The truth is rarely told; no one cares. People are focused on solving bigger problems, not petty issues such as which balance sheet should record transportation and phone call expenses. 

It's okay to keep your own books [as an individual]. I have a journal entry --- who cares? I am not the only one who uses his own fare when participating in company operations. Did the Team Leader die because I used my own money to make phone calls? 

No!

Dying is overrated. I get depression fantasies every time I look at my personal accounting journal. It's a stupid recipe for creating a suicide note. Killing myself is not a decision I can make. My creator decides when it's time for me to go home.

Abba Father, this is me  being petty online. Petty cash from my team leader might keep my pettiness away. You know what they say, your thoughts are higher than my thoughts. Abba Father, you always solve things differently because your thinking is different from my thinking.

My aim has always been to write stories that teach, but this post is focused on boredom. I get bored when reading my own stories. Boredom has been chasing me more than my team leader chases diligence. 

Problems are everywhere. They will always be present. Now is the time for me to learn the art of seeing the blessing in the pain. It's very easy to write a boring story. It's just similar to denying that Ruto is not a hustler.